HOUSE OF SEX
I SEDUCED THEM ALL; I MOTHERED THEM ALL
I BETRAYED THEM ALL; SORRY, NO REGRETS
I WAS AN OUTLAW IN THE HOUSE OF SEX
I USED MIRRORS AND VEILS, PERFUMES AND ILLUSIONS
I COULDN’T HAVE DONE IT WITHOUT THEIR TACIT COLLUSION
I WAS SEARCHING FOR SOMETHING ELUSIVE TO FIND
THE UNEXPLORED PARTS OF MY BODY, HEART AND MIND
I FOUND CLUES IN ALL MY FRIENDS & LOVERS
AND I LIED TO MYSELF SO THAT THEY WOULDN’T SUFFER
I TRADED PARTS OF ME FOR THE PARTS I COULDN’T SEE
AND I DID IT WITH A FAITHFUL, UNWAVERING DISHONESTY
AS MY PISCES NATURE TENDS TO MYSTIFY
AS MY BODY WANTS TO BE OCCUPIED
AS MY EMOTIONS SEEK TO SYMPATHIZE
AS MY MIND DEFINES AND RATIONALIZES
THO MY SOUL JUST WANTS TO BE WHOLE
THE MORE I REALIZE I AM THE GIFT
THE MORE I YIELD, THE MORE I SUBMIT
THE MORE I SOAR, THE MORE I DESIRE
THE MORE I FEED THIS UNQUENCHABLE FIRE
THERE IS BLOOD IN MY HEAD, IN MY EYES
INARTICULATE CRIES, MY WORDS DISGUISE
I’M GUSHING FROM MY WOMB LIKE HONEY FROM THE HIVE
DAZZLING, DARK, MAGNIFICENT AND WILD
THE FLAMED TONGUE, INSIDE OF ME
ABSOLUTION, FINALITY, EQUALITY
THE METAMORPHOSIS OF INNOCENCE
BLOOMS INTO EVER WIDER EXPERIENCE
GOD HAS GIVEN ME FLOWERS TO SMELL AND TO SEE
AND THE DEVIL WANTS TO KNOW — IF THEY’RE TASTY
IS MY INTELLECT PLAYING ANOTHER PRANK
I’M EXHAUSTED, STIMULATED, HOT AND WET AND RANK
AND EACH OF MY LOVERS REINFORCES ME
THOUGH ITS HARDER EVERY DAY — TO PLEASE
FOUR MEN SUCCESSFULLY
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THE TRIAL OF ANAIS NIN
“DON’T YOU WANT SOMEBODY TO LOVE, DONT’ YOU NEED SOMEBODY TO LOVE, WOULDN’T YOU LOVE SOMEBODY TO LOVE?”
JEFFERSON AIRPLANE
INQ
Miss Nin, you are on trial for the crime of bigamy. How do you plead?
NIN
Not guilty.
INQ
We have reports that you are married to two different men – –
one in New York and the other in California.
NIN
I am a lover of men. Most men, at least the ones I know,
would prefer ot have a mistress than a wife. And so I pretend with each.
INQ
You’re not married then at all?
NIN
No. You are a powerful man. You must enjoy a mistress… or two?
Or would like to?
INQ
Miss Nin, we have reports that you were first married ni Cuba.
NIN
I don’t believe that either of us recognizes the legitimacy
of the present government in Cuba.
INQ
That is true, Miss Nin. We also have reports you were married in Mexico.
NIN
Lies. Where do you get your information?
INQ
We don’t actually have any papers to verify this.
NIN
I would think not. I have come here to set the record straight. In this sordid climate people could accuse me of sleeping with my father or my children.
INQ
I didn’t know you had any children, Miss Nin?
NIN
I don’t.
INQ
Well thank you for your patience, Miss Nin.
NIN
I feel sorry for you. You have to account for your every move, arrival or exit.
In your world there is a conspiracy against improvisation.
INQ
Except in jazz.
NIN
And the CIA! And you’re not a jazz musician!
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From the play Tightrope
see webpage and youtube
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nigOrDoH-T8
38:15